Sunday, March 2, 2014

“Shivlinga” – the symbol of science/ symbol of the beginning of all.

must read the last part of this blog its a request :) below you will find the answers of the question like:
What is Shivlinga? What is God ? Where Is he ? Why he is one ? How to find him ? with the facts of science.



We do worship lord Shiva, so we need to know why do we worship him and what is Shiva lingam.
Lingam means the symbol, the mark. Just like the cross of Christians it’s a mark of Shiva, Shiva meaning “the auspicious one.” The beginning of everything, He’s the beginning of all and he’s the end.
Only a dirty mind that travel all around sex and all can imagine the Shivlinga as a Sexual item. But the Western culture the Muslims and others who don’t know about this they associates the lingam with Phallus.

Western people says that the vertical oval or half round pillar or the Bana is the penis, and the vertical oval shaped Vedi is the vagina, and the structure represents the lingam of Shiva. But I didn’t find the two sex organs in the lingam. Because the Bana appears to have come out, upwards through the Salunka or the Vedi, it is not penetrating down into Salunka, to think of Sexual Symbolism.

We the Aryans, we from the harapa-mohanjodaro civilization who treated as the teachers of the world, we are the Dharma and Gyan guru, having so much of strong history, having so much of knowledge at that time when the western culture was not formed instead, The people who attained such a high quality of wisdom and philosophy cannot be condemned as primitive. Those philosophers were worshipping Shiva Lingam. Can that be sexual symbolism? Can a man who has got his own sex organ, ever go to a temple to see the same thing there? Impossible.

Those, who say of Shiva Lingam as sexual symbol, are themselves primitive, because they cannot see anything else but sexuality. If we stretch our imagination to that extent, we can also say that the Cross, which the Christians worship, is also a symbol of sexual union. The horizontal small bar represents vagina of the female and the vertical bar piercing through it is the penis. If Shiva Lingam is a symbol of sexual union, the cross is also equally the same symbol; the only difference between the two is of art. Shiva - Lingam is quite artistic while there is no art in the cross. Being primitive they have represented only by lines.

Hindu Gods are representations of Energies and Shiva is the Energy of Destruction. Scientifically, energies are more settled in such formations like that of the uppermost end of the Shiva Linga.
Take a look at the shape of the Nuclear Reactors, Atom Bombs, Energy/electricity saving cells etc. Isnt it close match with Shiva Linga? The base or platform of such nuclear reactors act as a stabilizer controlling the chain reaction to prevent massive explosions. So the idea behind Shiva Linga and the significance of its base is such. Shiva Linga symbolizes and also holds massive energy and it is not erotic sculpture of  sex.Nuclear energy has the capacity to create the whole universe(big bang, electricity generation) and to destroy it as well.
  





“BARC” Atomic reactor is the Hindu Shiv-Linga' by Shri.O.P.Nak.
 The BARC atomic reactor is shaped like a shiv-linga.
The so-called coolant liquid for the BARC atomic reactor  is nothing but water required for bathing the shiv-linga by letting drops of water fall on the shiv-linga ("Abhishek" of the shiv-linga).
The so-called contaminated heavy-water is nothing but the water that comes out after bathing the shiv-linga -- it is "DAAHAK". It is well-known that hindu devotees are not suppoed to touch that water because it is contaminated.
At the backside of the reactor was a Hindu crematorium,Shiva temples and bathings of ancient origin. Had Shahjahan built the BARC atomic reactor, he would have destroyed the Hindu features.
The Hindu scripture Shiva Purana describes in its first section, the Vidyeshwar Samhita, the origin of the lingam, known as Shiva-linga, as the beginning-less and endless cosmic pillar (Stambha) of fire, the cause of all causes.Lord Shiva is pictured as emerging from the Lingam – the cosmic pillar of fire – proving his superiority over gods Brahma and Vishnu.This is known as Lingodbhava. The Linga Purana also supports this interpretation of lingam as a cosmic pillar, symbolizing the infinite nature of Shiva.According to Linga Purana, Shiva लिङ्गं liṅgaṃ Shiva Lingam or Shiva Pindi is a complete symbolic representation of the formless Universe Bearer - the oval shaped stone is resembling mark of the Universe and bottom base as the Supreme Power holding the entire Universe in it. Similar interpretation is also found in the Skanda Purana: "The endless sky (that great void which contains the entire universe) is the Linga, the Earth is its base. At the end of time the entire universe and all the Gods finally emerge in the Linga itself."

In the Mahabharata, Drona parva Adhyaya 201, Vyasa writes thus :- Narayana performed strenuous Tapa, when the highest God of the world, the origin of the Universe and the parent of the world, appeared himself before Narayana. That God is known as Shambhu, Hara or Rudra. He is smaller than Paramanu (subatomic particle like Proton, Neutron, Electron) and greater than any thing greatest. He is the cause of vitality in all the living things. Everything living or non-living originates from him. He can never be seen by ordinary people. He has engulfed the whole world. He is the limit of the Time. He has no birth, no death. He is invisible, unmanifest. He is the Soul of the Soul. He has no emotion, sentiment or passion at all.

Shiva Lingam represents the totality of the Cosmos and the Cosmos, in turn, being represented as a Cosmic Egg. Again an egg is an ellipsoid depicting with no beginning, nor end. 

A glance at the image of Shiva Lingam shows there is a pillar with three marks and a Disc beneath it and sometimes with a coiling cobra snake around the Pillar and shows its fangs above the pillar. The truth behind the scientific research by the Danish scientist, Neils Bohr, demonstrates that Molecules (the smallest part of everything) made up of Atoms which consists of Proton, Neutron and Electron, all of which play a vital part in the composition of Shiva Lingam. In those days instead of using these English words such as Proton, Neutron, Electron, Molecules and Energy, the ancient sages employed the usage of the words like Lingam, Vishnu, Brahma, Sakthi (which in turn is divided into Renuka and Rudrani), Sarppa, etc. as Sanskrit was the dominant language in those periods.


 According to Hinduism, the Pillar is described as the column of fire which represents the three Gods – Brahma, Vishnu and Maheshwara while the Disc or Peedam represents Sakthi. The Disc is shown with three ridges, encarved at its periphery. Sage Vyasa, the author of Mahabharta mentions that Lord Shiva is smaller than the sub-atomic particle like Proton, Neutron and Electron. The outcome of the scientific research is that the world came into existence with the formation of Molecules. According to Science, two atoms make one Molecule. The valency of molecules indicates the combination of the atoms. 


An examination of the image of Shiva Lingam in the context of Bohr model, would demonstrate the puzzling truth that Brahma has created the world. The behaviour of Proton, Electron, Neutron and Energy are well demonstrated by Shiva Lingam. 

Vishnu signifies Proton with positive electrical charge.
 Mahesha signifies Neutron with no electrical charge. 
Brahma signifies Electron with negative electrical charge. 
Sakthi is Energy. Sakthi is a type of energy field represented by a Disc. 

Shiva Lingam represents the atomic structure. According to the Rishis, Shiva and Vishnu are present in the Lingam. In Sanskrit, the three lines signify multiple. In the atomic structure, there are Protons and Neutrons which are surrounded by fast spinning Electrons. Sakthi is represented by a Disc in oval shape with three ridges carved at its periphery. She is Energy and plays a vital role in the Universe. The actual producer of molecules is Electron which signifies Brahma. Modern physics shows that Electrons are shared between the atoms to form a molecule. Therefore the Hindu concept that Brahma created the earth is in conformity with Science. 


The worship of Shiva Lingam was not confined to India and Srilanka only. Lingam was referred to ‘Prayapas’ by the Romans who introduced the worship of Shiva Lingam to European countries. The statutes of Shiva Lingams were found in the archeological findings in Babylon, a city of ancient Mesopotamia. Further, the archeological findings in in Harappa-Mohanjo-daro, which yielded numerous Shiva Lingam statutes, have disclosed the existence of a highly evolved culture long before the Ariyan’s immigration.
Shiva Lingam is always placed near a river, because the sages were doing experiments on the atoms and they knew that if some accident takes place, there will be Radiation Fall-out, and to save from that radiation hazards the only way was to jump into the rivers and remain immersed in the water.
All these traditions point to the presence of the knowledge of the atom and atomic energy. Male and female, flame and shadow, definitely suggest positive and negative. Any energy has got these two poles positive and negative. Understanding fully this fact our ancestors prepared the Lingam. Because they had the knowledge of Magnetism, and they knew that the north pole of Earth is negative, they placed the negativity or Salunka pointing towards the North. This is the tradition even today, though the science behind is forgotten.
Now you must have realized that our sages had studied thoroughly the minute and the enormous, living and nonliving, stars and the Universe, and found out the ultimate energy. They noticed that the ultimate energy is only one, but has many manifestations. Studying completely that Supreme energy the sages prepared a model for the students to study it and for the ordinary people to worship it.
The symbol of that energy is Shiva-Lingam and the energy is Shiva himself. Our ancestors have done great work but as the time passed, the real meaning was lost, leaving behind the traditions and literature, which we can study. It is our duty to study the whole of the ancient literature and traditions to revitalize the knowledge. I am sure by this way we can make advances in the scientific progress and India can, once again, show the light of knowledge to the world.

Now, the Veda’s speaks that “ekam- ekdivityam” meaning “God is one without a second” . It means the Shiv, the fireball is the only one God because he is the father of all,he is Vashankara the father of generations, as we know the earth and all is made up with the Molecules and atoms, and the Shiv lingam represent the same.
Veda’s also says “na tasya prati na asti” meaning “there is no form of god” as we know molecules don’t have a exact form even we cannt see it that’s why we cannt see god, we only understand him by the knowledge, that’s why a man who is surrounded by the paap-punya, achievements and punishment cannt get the God.

Now, why we say that the God is Sarvyappi and he is present in us or in every creature?
What is Soul and how its present in every creature?

As we know and as we discussed above that its all starts with the anu, parmanu the atom and the molecules and all and the Shiv represent it, and we all creatures and the earth is made up of with the atoms and molecules. So, evry creature having the content of anu parmanu in it. So we say the God the almighty the father is present in us and in everything he is sarvvyappi. He is the owner of our soul so he is the Great soul the Paramatma.

Why we say the God is One?

All the religion all the knowledgeble people and saints says that the God is one….. Jesus mention he is in form of light/
Islam speaks the “Allaha ho Akhbar” God is one and he is allaha, Allaha is the greates of all. (the black stone in kabba is same as the Shiva Lingam)
Hinduism says “Ekam0 ekdivityam” God is one without a second
Sai baba says “sabka malik ek”. 


 and as we discused above that everything is begin with the atom and molecule so its the only thing and its the only reason of everything. 
Now, we all know who is God Isnt J

Thank you for reading

       -         ashish trivedi

Sunday, March 18, 2012

please give your 2 minutes to read this blog about India......


If you thought that Global Indian Takeover was just a hollow cliche leaning on a few iconic successes like Pepsi's Indra Nooyi, Citibank's Vikram Pandit and steel world's Lakshmi Mittal, there is a slew of statistics now to give it solid ballast.

We come from a nation where we aIIow a Lady of CathoIic origin... to step aside for a Sikh
to be sworn in as Prime Minister... to a MusIim President to govern a nation of over 80 percent Hindus.
 

The extent to which desis have made an impact in the US was reeled off in the Rajya Sabha — as many as 12% scientists and 38% doctors in the US are Indians, and in Nasa, 36% or almost 4 out of 10 scientists are Indians. 

If that's not proof enough of Indian scientific and corporate prowess, digest this: 34% employees at Microsoft, 28% at IBM, 17% at Intel and 13% at Xerox are Indians. 


And the House of Elders also heard some startling facts about a country that's still stuck with a Third World tag — 20% of gold in the world is used by Indians and nine out of 10 diamonds used in the world are made in India. 


If this too not enough of Indian powers,listen this: out of 18 doctors of the president of united state of America,13 are from India that doesn't sounds great,it simply means that Britishers believe that the Indian Doctors brave enough to look after of there president,but the shameless matter is when our congress leader Sonia Gandhi was suffering from the unknown disease she went to abroad for her treatment, when our leaders don't believe on there people than nothing is going worst than this.

Beside this the world thinks that India has all this cast division and fights with casts and all, but i must say whenever or ever when i went any of the state in India I had Never Found any cast fight  or else,jab ram mandir ka faisla aana tha tab all where thinking that there will be surely going to have danga and all this,but bhala ho aaj ki jawan pidi ka dhamake toh dur ek pathar bhi nahi uchala gaya,
Gaurtalbh yeh h ki jab bharat mai hinduaon ke top 10 bhajjan chunne gaye thhe tab 10 mai se 6 bhajjan "SHAKEEL BADAYUNI" k mile aur baki k 4 bhajjan "SAHIR LUDHIYANVI" KE, daso ke daso bhajjanon ko apne sangeet se sajaya hamare "NAUSHAD SAHABH" ne aur dhyan dijiyega daso ke daso bhajjano ko awaaj di thi "MD. RAFI" sahabh ne aur daso ke daso bhajjan par abhinay kiya tha hamare "YUSUF KHAN - DILLIP KUMAR" ne tabh mai puchta woh kahna h jinhe hindu muslim mai pyaar nhi dikhta,hamari sarkar ko inn musalmano ka "VANDE MATARAM" nahi bolna dikhta hai,par hame toh unhi musalmano ka dhyan dijiyega unhi musalmano ka din mai panch wakhat namash aata karne k liye apne madar-e-watan bharat mata ke pairon mai jhukhna dikhta h....
Yahan tak ki hamare leaders nara bhi galat detey h that “HINDU,MUSLIM,SIKH,ISAI AAPAS MAI SAB BHAI-BHAI” appas mai sab bhai bhai matlab hindu hindu se musalman musalman se,yeh toh galat h asal mai hona yeh chahiye ki “HINDU,MUSLIM,AUR ISAI YEH SAB HAIN EK IKKAI” sikhon koi bhi iss shreni mai nahi dalna h kyonki yehi toh hamare hinduon ke sabse badi shaan hain,jiski nishani inki pagri deti hai.

Hamare do aur bhai Bala Sahebh Thakre aur Raj Thakrey inhe toh kamjor vargon ko marr kar hi virta dikhti hai, par asal mai toh virta toh uss MAJOR SANDEEP UNNIKRISHANAN ki hai jisne janam liya Kerela mai,sikhsha pai banglore mai,bihar regiment mai naukri ki aur mumbai bachane mai saheed hogaye...
India also has a strong music and film industries, hamare bharat mai 22 bhasaon mai more than 70000 newspaper hain and its biggest newspaper market in the world,jinhe padhne wallon ki sankhya 120 million se bhi adhik hai,bharat mai kul 500 satellite channels hain,and more than 80 are news channels.

Yunan-o-misr-o-roma, sab mit gaye jahan se
Ab tak magar hai baqi, nam-o-nishan hamara 

Kuch bat hai keh hasti, mitati nahin hamari
Sadiyon raha hai dushman, daur-e-zaman hamara……..
Wese China aur japan car,motor toh bana saktey hain par hamne jo sanskar diyen h yeh toh koi mulk nhi bana sakta,hamare sanskar jo kai saun saalon se chale aarahe hain,aaj bhi hamare bhitar jiveet hain,subah uthh kar mata pita k charan chu kar apne din ki shurwaat karna kon desh karta hai,taknik toh bade se bade desh deteyn h bharat ne b diya  hai,par sanskar toh yeh hamari dharohar hai,hum apne desh ko bhi bharat mata kehteyn hain,aapne kahin suna hai america baap,england chacha,holand kaka.Sbhayata hamare desh mai pehele aayi,aur fir hamne duniya ko gyaan diya margdarshan kiya,hamara desh pure samuche vishwa ka dharm guru raha hai,sanskriti aalok ki rashmiyan sarvpratham yahin se vikrin huin thi.
  YAVAN KO DIYA DAYA KA DAAN, CHIN KO MILI DHARM KI DRISHTI,                             
MILA THA SWARN-BHUMI KO RATNA, SHIL KI SINHAL KO BHI SRISHTI.

DUNIYA KA ITIHAAS PUCHTA ROME KAHAN YUNAAN KAHAN HAI
GHAR GHAR MAI SUVAHDIN JALATA VAHMURAT IRAAN KAHAN HAI
DEEP  BHUJE PASCHIMI GAGAN KE VAYAPT HUA BAR BAR ANDHIYARA
   KINTU CHIR KAR TAM KI CHATI CHAMKA HINDUSTAN HAMARA
When many cultures were only nomadic forest dwellers over 5000 years ago,indians established Harappan Culture in Sindhu Valley.
                        Vigyan na tha jab Dhartipar,hum Pushpak yaan udatey thhe.
                        Jab nahi chemistry thi jag mai,Makardhawaj nitya banatey thhe.
                        Apni gaveshna ke bal par,hum JagatGuru kehelatey thhe…

JAB PASCHIM NE VANTHAL KHA KAR CHAAL PEHEN KAR LAAJ BACHAYI
   TAB BHARAT SE SAAM GAAN KA SWARGIK SWAR THA DIYA SUNAI

India invented the number system. Aryabhatta invented Zero.
The father of medicine Charaka, consolidated Ayurveda 2500 years ago.
Acharya Bharadwaja Pioneer in Avaition technology (800 before common era)
Acharya Sushruta The Father of Surgery (600 before common era)
Nagarjuna Wizard of medical science (100 before common era)
Acharya Kanada Father Of atomic theory (600 before common era)
Bhaskaracharya a great discoveror (1114-1183 before common era)
He calculated the time taken by the earth to orbit as 365.258756484 days. Just 3.45 in difference with the modern accepted measurment.
Acharya kapil Father of Cosmology (3000 before common era)
Chanakya our great Architecht & Economist (350-283 before common era)
Jagdish Chandra Bose  the inventor of Wireless Receiver 1858-1937 A.D)
The value of “pi” was first calculated by the indian Mathematician Budhyana,and he explained the conept of what is known as pythagorean theorem.He discovered this in 6th century long before European Mathematician.
Until 1896 India was the only source of diamonds in the world.
The Baily Bridge is the highest bridge in the world located in the Ladakh Valley.
The four religions born in India- Hinduism,Buddhism,Jainism,Sikhism are followed by 25% of the world’s population.
The largest  Religious building in the world is Angkor Wat, a hindu temple in Cambodia built at the end od of 11th century.
Martial Arts were First Created in India,and later spread to Asia by buddhist missionaries.
Yoga has it origins in India and has existed for over 5000 years.
India Exports Software To 90 countries.
Anatomy,Embryology,Digestion,Physiology,Etiology,and immunity is also found in many Ancient Indian texts.
Today, India has the largest skilled worforce in the world and one of the fastest growing economies with about $4 trillion PPP.
The first ever University was Established at Takshila in 700 BC where there had 60 subjects and 10500 students to study there from the whole world.
                                    `Andhkar hai wahan jahan aditya nahi hai
                                    Murda hai who Desh jahan Sahitya nahi hai……..

Kisi bhi Swatantra rashtriya mai uski bhasha ka bohot mehetvapurna isthan hai. Bhasha ke madhyam se hi hum Rastriya ke baare mai kuch jaan saktey hain. Iss liye bhasha mahatavpurn hai,par hamari aaj ki pidi kuch jada hi paripakva(mature) hogayi hai,aur issi paripakvata mai woh desh ko bhul gayi hai,desh ki maryada desh ke simaayen sab langh chuki hain,am not saying that go and follow all the Indian tradition,but we should follow all that things which our good for us..
Aaj hum kisi se bhi puchen ki bharat ki bhasa kya hai toh aaj ki pidi angreji ka hi naam leti hai,hindi ko toh hum sab bhul hi gaye hain jab hum kisi se miltey hain we greet them with “hi” “jai ram ji ki” ya fir “namastey” bolne mai hum chotey ho jatey hain,hum hindi se dur hotey ja rahen hain,aur angreji ko hi apnatey ja rahen hain,yahan tak ki apne hi desh ke Bhasha ko we use to say as second language,ab isse jada sharamshaar hone wali baat kya hogi,me is not saying ki dusre bhasaon ko sikhna galat hai par dusre bhasaon ke liye apne khud ke desh ki bhasha ka tyag karna yeh kahana tak sahi hai. Wese desi aadmi kisi bhi desh ko apnale par usse sacha anand desi hone mai hi aayega,maa kehene mai jo sukh hai,woh aur koi bhasha mai kahan,yahn tak ki angreji bhai hamari hindi se hi aayi hai It may aIso interest you to know that... many of the origins to your wordscome from Sanskrit. For exampIe, maatr becomes mother... bhratr becomes brother,giamiti becomes geometry
trikonniti becomes trigonometry, and nov becomes navy etc.., hindi mai bade ko “aap” nd chotey ko prem sambodhan ke liye “tum” kehene ka pravdhan hai,angreji mai bade chotey sab ke liye “you” hi kehetey hain,sanvado ke aadan pradan mai bhi hum dusron ko aadar dene mai nahi hichaktey,yahna tak ki angrej jo apne ko wishva ke sabse bade shaktishali mantey hain,who bhi hindi ke kai sabdon ke angreji sabd nahi khoj paye jese “Gutham-gutha” “pakoda” etc…,mai toh apne bhartiya bhaiyon se yahi kahunga jahan tak ho hindi prayog mai laayen desh ko uncha uthaye ki mai janta hun mai yeh sab jo likh raha hun usse who log padne walen hain jinhe kal desh chalana hai,aaj ki piri mba phd kafi badi badi padai kar chuki hai, bohot bade bade companiyon mai job karti hai,marketing aur annya kayi bade bade sahabddon ka prayog karti hai,mba karke yeh badi badi compniyon se paise letin h unke marketing ke liye kintu ek langoti wala aaaya aur coca cola ko ussi jagah ghusa dala jahan se aamir khan usse nikala kartey thee co. ki neev hila di,maine kahan yeh toh kuch nahi yeh toh langoti wala hai bharat mai toh naga baba bhi hotey hain,in short I mean to say aap kitne bhi bade hojao,badi jagah posting hojaye par deshi pan mat choro,apani bhasha ko mat bhulu,nhi iss vishwa ka itihaas tmko bhula dega…….
AANKH KHOL KAR DEKHO GHAR MAI BHISAN AAG LAGI HAI
DHARM SBHYATA SANSKRITI KHANE DANAV CHUDHA JAGI HAI
HINDU KEHENE MAI SHARMATEY DUDH LAJATEY LAAJ NA AATI
GHOR PATAN HAI APANI MAA KO MAA KEHENE MAI PHATTI CHHATI………
Thank you for all of you to give your pricious time to read this,am gratefull to all of you….
                                                            Jai Hind Jai Bharat………..

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                 

Saturday, November 5, 2011

confession to my frnds...................


A Keeping a friendship together is a lot of hard work. It's especially taxing after an argument or a conflict. Make sure you guys cool down and talk about it calmly. Getting others involved can complicate matters too – so don't. as says, “a meangful silence iz always better than meangless wrds”
Sometimes friendships can extend beyond this realm into another world. Do you believe in angels? At times I do believe that there are beings sent from heaven to watch over us. It makes me feel more secure. Instead of those epic stories, I believe that angels whisper in our ears or stop us from crossing the road when danger is ahead,yeah I found Angel Friends
Of course there are earthly human beings that act like angels too. Some of my friends are like that and I'm very fortunate to have them. They are those friends that you can call up 3am in the morning because you're feeling lonely or depressed. They are those friends who will always be there no matter the situation, the weather, or who you are as a person, they are those who holds my hand against d crowd 2 save me n sayng, “tu tension mat le apne sambhallenge sb” they are those who taps my back wen am wrong n says, “I knew it aese ghaple sirf tu hi kar sakta h” they r those who does everythng to me n refuses to tk thnx n says, “ab ye formlty ka natak maat kar”they r those who mk u smile & stop ur tears & himslf starts cryng, “ankh me bhi abhi kachra jana tha bas ab tu ye band kar apna ye radio”.
Bt today I donn hv those three carrng frnds wid me, bcoz of my narrow minded thnkng n d only desire to hv all d frnds only wid me evry tme netme weather I need them or nt,bt I wannna every of dem wid me evry tme,dis ws d only mstk I hv dne to dem…..

I' had a lot of friends throughout my life but every time I had friends or was friends with someone they'll always say "you don't value ur frnds" to me... and it hurt and I'd always wonder... I spend all my time hanging out with this persons and they turn around some day and say 'I don't value my friends' in a passive context or condescending matter. I probably lost 3 friends throughout my life because of my own fault, I Alwaz Loose  coz i alwaz ran 4 makng frnds ,while dey always  RAn 4 frndshp.!!!!! i ws always  in a habbit of thnkng dat ki “my frnds r nt gvng dere attention to me or dey r nt wanna live wid me, 4 dis I evolved a nw habbit to my charctr ohhhhhhhh wt m sayng I donnn wanna say dis bcoz  I knw dat aftr writing dis all f my frnds wll cme to knw bout me, bt it dossnt mattr to me coz I hd lossen my best frnds for dis habbit nw m gong to share dis wid all of u, as I said in d 4th para  dat I ws in a gr8 habbit, for fulfillng my desires I hv dne several gimmik thngs, bt before sayng dis thngs I mst say ki yeh sab padhne k baad koi b banda/bandi mere pe nhi hasega/hasegi, okie nw m gong to share dis.
For mkng their attention to me I always say fake thngs to dem (sorry indu,himansu,vedansh for dis) as like ki we hv lots of property here n dere n wagerah wagerah I donn wanna share dis thngs more coz dey all knw dis thngs well bt dey nevvr mk me report of dis thngs, I thnk evry person says dis n dis iz nt a wrng thng coz I donn wanna do bad of dem I jst only wanna dem to be wid me,bt I ws wrng bt I realize it today dat it ws wrng,bt mera koi kharab intnsion nhi tha,also at dat tme my luck ws nt wid me,mai jo b acha kaam karne jata tha newton k 3rd law ki tarah dey cmes to me wid d consequences,bt 1 thng i mst say I hd said several false,fake n wrng thngs to dem coz I donn wanna loosse dem d problm wid me ws dat ki I ws always in afraid if dey leave me,
apne dost ya apne bhai-behen ya fr apne paa-maa se log jhut tabhi bolteyn h jab who unka respct karten hen d prson lvs dem a lot n donn wanna loose dem,so I did dat bt lattr I knw dat all dis ws wrng, agar aap kisi se pyaar karte ho respect kartey ho dat dosnt means ki aap usse kisi b chij k liye jhut bolo, u should create bharosa in dem.
Bt who keheten h na jab nassib hi saath na de toh kya karega chottuuu…….
Also those days ws d wrost part of my life everthng ws gong wrng evry min ws cmnng wid a nw consequences,nd my mind ws divrted in sme diffrnt thngs so I nvr go to my frnds to say sorry for my thngs I hv dne to dem,n today its gong to be d 3rd yr, n I hv never talk dem till nw,n I knew its too lte to say sorry 4 my task I hd committed three years yearlier, I know sometimes it's really hard to say that you've made a mistake but there's no reason to say otherwise either, right? Plus you'd know it in your heart that saying 'sorry' would make a difference. It's that little word that really matters in the end. Bt nw I missed dat chane too,n I also knew it dat d life of us hd been changed we r nt d sme as we r 3 yrs yearlier,maybe they meant I wasn't being socialable nw am nt  trying to make new friends but my friendships always dissolved this way or in some other displeasing way. 
Maybe it was because I got into stouts of despondency... but I don't know...
But it's something I'm really self-conscious of now.
I think I have a fear of approaching people and being criticized for not valueng friends….
I donno weather dey r gong to forgive me or nt or weather dey r gong to read dis or nt bt one day dey wll be again my frnds n we wll hangout n njoy togetthr,also I gt punishment for my tasks dta iz dere “avoidance”

I know I’m being selfish and insecure and even thoughtless, but I hope you’ll understand and forgive me…

try to undrstnd me dude..!!
urs lovely                                                                       
trivedi 

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Really heart touching.........

I was walking around in a Big Bazar store making shopping, when I saw
a Cashier talking to a boy couldn't have been more than 5 or 6 years
old..

TheCashier said, 'I'm sorry, but you don't have enough money to buy
this doll. Then the little boy turned to me and asked: ''Uncle, are
you sure I don't have enough money?''

I counted his cash and replied: ''You know that you don't have enough
money to buy the doll, my dear.'' The little boy was still holding the
doll in his hand.

Finally, I walked toward him and I asked him who he wished to give
this doll to. 'It's the doll that my sister loved most and wanted so
much . I wanted to Gift her for her BIRTHDAY.


I have to give the doll to my mommy so that she can give it to my
sister when she goes there.' His eyes were so sad while saying this.
'My Sister has gone to be with God.. Daddy says that Mommy is going to
see God very soon too, so I thought that she could take the doll with
her to give it to my sister...''

My heart nearly stopped. The little boy looked up at me and said: 'I
told daddy to tell mommy not to go yet. I need her to wait until I
come back from the mall.' Then he showed me a very nice photo of him
where he was laughing. He then told me 'I want mommy to take my
picture with her so my sister won't forget me.' 'I love my mommy and I
wish she doesn't have to leave me, but daddy says that she has to go
to be with my little sister.' Then he looked again at the doll with
sad eyes, very quietly..

I quickly reached for my wallet and said to the boy. 'Suppose we check
again, just in case you do have enough money for the doll?''

'OK' he said, 'I hope I do have enough.' I added some of my money to
his with out him seeing and we started to count it. There was enough
for the doll and even some spare money.

The little boy said: 'Thank you God for giving me enough money!'


Then he looked at me and added, 'I asked last night before I went to
sleep for God to make sure I had enough money to buy this doll, so
that mommy could give It to my sister. He heard me!'' 'I also wanted
to have enough money to buy a white rose for my mommy, but I didn't
dare to ask God for too much. But He gave me enough to buy the doll
and a white rose. My mommy loves white roses.'


I finished my shopping in a totally different state from when I
started. I couldn't get the little boy out of my mind. Then I
remembered a local

news paper article two days ago, which mentioned a drunk man in a
truck, who hit a car occupied by a young woman and a little girl. The
little girl died right away, and the mother was left in a critical
state. The family had to decide whether to pull the plug on the
life-sustaining machine, because the young woman would not be able to
recover from the coma. Was this the family of the little boy?

Two days after this encounter with the little boy, I read in the news
paper that the young woman had passed away.. I couldn't stop myself as
I bought a bunch of white roses and I went to the funeral home where
the body of the young woman was exposed for people to see and make
last wishes before her burial. She was there, in her coffin, holding a
beautiful white rose in her hand with the photo of the little boy and
the doll placed over her chest. I left the place, teary-eyed, feeling
that my life had been changed for ever...

The love that the little boy had for his mother and his sister is
still, to this day, hard to imagine. And in a fraction of a second, a
drunk driver had taken all this away from him.

Please DO NOT DRINK & DRIVE.